Food… !

Today I totally forgot to eat. I woke up around 11am and wasn’t hungry. I told my mom I would have lunch later, at noon I just totally forgot to eat. When I was in the car going to my dance class I felt kind of dizzy and remembered I hadn’t had any meals throughout the day. But that was already 7:00pm. In dance class I was in another dimension. It was like everyone was o far away. The funny thing is, I felt high and weak at the same time. After dancing for like 1:30min I was tired and “high”. Now I wonder, why do people take drugs if you can just not eat for 24 hours and do some exercise that you get high! Although I had dinner when I got home because I was way too weak and my stomach was eating itself! Apart from that I’m really excited because the choreo. for MixColor (hip hop show) is ready! It’s only 4min and 30sec. but it’s a great choreo! It has a lot of energy and people upside down! Ha! I’m lovin’ it! The only thing is that the outfit is Purple, Green and Gray. Totally NOT matching. But ok, I’ll just go with the flow and get something sexy and with style that no one will notice the random colors… (yeah right). I’ll probably post pictures or even a video of us! =D

Back to the start

Seems like I’m back to the start. Vlogging is fun but makes me very vulnerable.. so I’ll just post up videos of me dancing and maybe, who knows, singing, when I can. My vacation so far has been very boring. The only fun part was like the first week when I had the sleep over with my THE best friends ever! It was so much fun, Alvy feel asleep at like 4. Then we took him to his room. The funniest thing was that we were all talking when we heard a snore. We looked at him and he was there, so vulnerable, sleeping. Laura started talking to him, like: “Alvy, are you seriously sleeping?” Didn’t get that, if he was he wouldn’t answer, or would be woken up by her. Of course, he woke up. We all started laughing. I took him to his room and went back to the girls.

We talked until 6:30am. Actually, we wouldn’t sleep at all, we had made this pact of who could stay up with no sleep. But then, thinking about it, we decided to sleep because we would be exhausted during the day and wouldn’t have time to have some more fun. I woke up at 8:00am, 1 hour and 30min of sleep. So helpful huh? My teeth hurt because of my braces that fell off the previous day. I went to my mom’s room and she was there so we started talking. I started sneezing and decided not to go back into the room because I would wake them up. Oh, funny moment. When we were talking at like, 5:00, we had just talked about scary things andour hearts were almost jumping out of my mouth. There was the door lock that I could see through, and kept imagining an eye, just appearing there. The scary clowns looking down on us on top of the shelf. The mirror that scares me to death because terror movies ALWAYS have mirrors where ghosts appear. We were scared and all, and I was like: Woah imagine if like the grudge lady appears through the door or something. After 10min talking, another topic, my mom opened the door and put her head through it. Seriously! I jumped so high and screamed soo loud!! Laura and Chris jumped too. My mom was like: woah, am I that ugly? haha We laughed about it later. Summarizing the wake-over (because we didn’t really sleep) was simply amazing. I won’t describe each and every detail because it would take forever and still wouldn’t be enough.

I hope my vacation have more of these fun days to come. Eric is not here and he’ll only come back July, 2nd. One week with him and I’ll leave July, 9th. I’m only coming back on the 20th. Although I will have lots of fun while I’m traveling. I’ll post more often now that I’m back to writing. It feel so much safer! =D

Goodnight to everyone. It’s 4:19am and I still haven’t went to bed. At 4:00pm I have exams (singing, piano and music theory) and I still haven’t studied THAT much! =O gotta sleep! ‘Night.

New Choreo.

I’m working on this new choreo. with the song Closer from Ne-Yo. I think it’s going to be a duo… I have a lot of work to do.. but here’s a quick preview of some of the steps that are ready…

Hoedown Throwdown – Miley Cyrus (Hannah Montana)

Hoedown Throwdown choreography. I saw the movie yesterday and got the choreo. today. It’s not 100%, but it’s so fun to dance it that I felt like I had to post it up.

Bombs… Gay Parade???

This is my first vlog, hope y’all like it. Feel free to comment on the subject or about my new way of blogging.

 

PS: Never mind my face or hair, I look horrendous.

Slipped Away

I just watched this video that made my eyes fill up with tears. It’s funny how we people, live our lives. We have this one thing that we all know, we’re born, we live, we die. Everyone accept the fact, that one day, the ones they love will die and they will too. But the day when you loose that one person, it’s as if you never knew it was coming. It’s like someone takes your heart away and puts painful memories in it’s place.

I’m the type of person that always hold back what I’m feeling. As time goes by, this feeling grows inside of me to a point that it feels like my heart is about to burst. When my grandmother died, I stood strong. I was there for my parents and for the family. Everytime we met, I would hold a smile and say that everything was alright and that she is in a better place. But everytime I start remembering her, and the small things it’s as if it was the day she left. Everytime I listen to Slipped Away from Avril Lavigne, it’s like my world if falling apart, all over again. It’s the song I listened the day she passes away, and it still has the same meaning to me. I remember when we used to go to São Paulo and I wouldn’t say much, just like her, it was as if the silence was our communication and our hearts felt in peace that way. When we were alone, we would just sit there and stare at each other. Her eyes showed her soul, and I could see the brave woman that was in so much pain because no one understood her. In silence, we would sit and listen to each others breathing. Now, 4 years since the last time I heard her breathing I sit in silence. I close my eyes, and remember what it felt like to be next to her. My throat closes and my heart hurts, because I know that she can feel me too. I know that she understood me, with no words, because I understood her. I accept the fact that she is gone, but I can’t deny how it hurts to know that I will never be there, on a Saturday night, next to her. I can’t deny how it hurts, to remember the last time we hugged and said goodbye, and what hurts the most is that we didn’t know it was our last goodbye. Now, that I’m alone I can let my tears out and remember everything. I still love her so much, and all these years only made my love for her grow. I know that one day, we’re going to meet again. The silence will bond our hearts and mend our souls. It’s sad to say it, but I know that where she is now is much better than the life she was living here.

Gimme Time and I’ll Do It!

I was talking to my dance teacher yesterday and he said something really interesting. He was talking about how at first I really suck at things but that in a short period of time I can get better than people that are practicing for quite a while.  I thought about that, and it’s true. The Freeze for example, me that couldn’t even do a cartwheel properly now can do a Freeze in like one week of practice. And House Trance, that in one full class I got it and now can’t stop doing it. I was really happy he (my teacher) is noticing me now, he even calls out my name during the coreo. saying how well I’m doing. The best thing about accomplishing things, is not only prove to yourself you can do it, but when people (professionals like him) gives you credit for it.

 

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BEST Day Ever!

I’m so hyper ventilating! I just had THE best day, THE best dance class EVER!!  Let’s start from the beginning…

I don’t know if I posted about this. But recap: Some time ago my dance teacher gave us our grades for every style and physical condition. He gave me Poor in House (Trance, Psy… whatever you wanna call it). I was really upset, but I knew I sucked at it so not THAT upset. Today when I got to class there was this guy from the Advanced class and my teacher said he was there to give us a class about House. My instant reaction: “Fuck! I suck at this…” He started teaching us some basics. At first, I wasn’t as bad as last class but still sucking at it. He saw I was trying my best and he came to me and said: “Hey, feel the music. Forget about getting it right or wrong. Just close your eyes and feel the music.” He turned the music up and I closed my eyes. I  started getting into it. and he continued: “Yeah, like that, don’t be shy, lose control.” And so I did. I started dancing, and dancing with my heart and soul. When I opened my eyes I was dancing and I saw my teacher, the one who gave me Poor for House Trance, watching me. The “new” teacher started passing a choreography. I got it at first. I was SOOOOO happy. and I was actually feeling the groove and not sucking at it. My teacher got up and said he would include that choreo. into ours. And he started putting people into places. His thing is, the bests in the front and the bests of the bests in the middle in the front. He grabbed my arm and put me in the front and right in the middle! Damn right I was so frikin’ happy! He asked us to do the choreo. and the whole class was watching us. Just me, and the “new” teacher. I did it, and felt the groove, and lost control. Seriously, now I’m addicted to it. It’s the best thing ever! When you get it, it’s like soooo good! So, that’s part 1 of my happiness.

Part 2:  For the ones who are following my previous posts you all know that I’ve been working really hard to get my Freeze right. Right after my House Trance moment my teacher told us to do the choreo. I started doing it, beyond the fact that lately my memory is really bad (probably finals) I kind of forgot some steps, but few people noticed. When it came to the part 0f the partners I was so nervous. I went next to my partner and started doing our dance. He went around me (move right before the Freeze) and got down. Honestly, I don’t know exactly what was on my mind right there. The main thing was: the worst it can happen is death. So I went. And I did it perfectly!! Last class I kind of did it. But today, it was simply perfect! My hands didn’t shake, my legs were perfect. EVERYTHING was perfect! I was almost jumping up and down upside down (wonder how that would look like). My partner was already celebrating, I wanted to celebrate with him, but I couldn’t! (cause I was upside down). When I got up I was hyper ventilating. I finished our choreo. and exit left. When the choreo finished I went running back in and my partner came running towards me. We were both so happy! He hugged me and we started jumping and screaming and laughing and talking at the same time about how perfect it was! The whole class was just staring at us as if we were some kinda psychos. But I don’t care! I DID IT! FINALLY! My dream came true! Our dream! If anyone filmed that moment it would’ve been so Hollywood! Me running and us hugging and jumping up and down and him lifting me up the ground. It was unforgettable. Class ended, and I went to the car. I couldn’t stop talking, I was still hyper ventilating and still am right now. I’ll probably be forever like this. I’m so proud of myself, and my partner is so proud of me. I couldn’t be happier. So, I want to thank everyone that helped me do it at school. That gave me support, not only physical so I wouldn’t fall and die, but moral to help me win my fears. Thanks to:

-Laura: who was always next to me and helped me forget my fears. 

-Lorraine: for giving me advise on how to maintain my body and not fall and open my head on the floor.

-Andrea: my super cheerleader who not only was there when I tried it for the first time on the wall but also went through all my emotions when I got something right or wrong.

-Ylane: Who told me how to keep my body in place, and gave me support to go ahead because “I could do it”.

-Carole: Who was always there, sitting or standing, watching me do my crazy stuff. Waiting for the time I would go and fall head first. Laughing when I kept doing it all the time and running to help me when I was about to die.

Thank you so much you all. And thank you of course, to my partner that put faith in me and believed in me. Thank you for not giving up on me as a dancer and as a person. I will obviously not say his name because if he reads this he’ll think I’m some kind of stalker that writes about him in a blog. I really hope his English is not good. If you’re reading this… hum… it’s not you! Really, I’m not a stalker, I’m not crazy… Okay, maybe I am. But really who’s not? Plus, I’d rather be myself than blend into the ordinary…

Love you guys!!

Gay Marriage

In my world history class we have to post up a current event on the blog. My post was about gay marriage:

Gay Marriage Slow to Draw an Opposition in N.Y

By Jeremy W. Peters

May, 20, 2009.

A response to: nytimes.com 

Carolina Telio

25/05/09

 

            Gay marriage is heading to be legalized in the state of New York. The State Assembly and the state’s political figures are in favor of the acceptance. Although not everyone has the same opinion, some conservatives are doing appeals for the population to not accept this new law. The Family Research Council says that they defend the marriage of opposite sex so a family can be formed. There are so many marriages between heterosexuals that end up as a total failure.

            These conservatives should not have such a name, and yes be called homophobic. The only thing the gay community in New York wants is the same rights as everyone else. They are not trying to influence the population to become gay or to commit some type of murder. Their marriage will not affect other people at all. These homosexuals are humans just like everyone else and they deserve the same rights heterosexuals have. This community is investing a lot of money in ads to inform people that they want their rights and that gay marriage is not “wrong”, like the conservatives says it is. Some conservatives are actually asking for donations to do a campaign against Gay Marriage because they do not have enough money to do so. It’s so sad, people are actually using money, something so superficial, to appeal against a human right, to be with the person you love. I don’t see how making someone so miserable will bring them any happiness at all. Maybe they are just living in the past where everyone had to be the same and people could never be accepted for who they really were. Conservatives have to see that, if they’re opinion is that it’s better to be heterosexual than keep it to themselves and apply their values to their own personal life and let other live theirs. They have to change their actions and stop judging people by the superficial and actually look deeper.

            Gay marriage should definitely be legalized in New York, because the homosexuals should have equal rights, just like everyone else. Conservatives should stop worrying about other and start focusing on themselves. Maybe then realize, that they are so afraid of homosexuals (=homophobia) because they’re uncertain about their own sexuality.  

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Comments:

silviaraia  |  June 1st, 2009 at 5:08 pm

Yes Carol I totally agree with you. Gay marriage is supposed to be accepted and legalized. As you said they don’t affect anyone but themselves, they have the right to love anyone they want and be with them as every human wants. Doesn’t matter what people say, for me this is called prejudice. People should try to make a better world for everyone, not destroy it.

Kisses
Sil

2.    matheusdana1  |  June 1st, 2009 at 6:09 pm

Ca, I think that your article is pretty shocking. I believe that gay marriages should be allowed because homosexual men have the same rights as heterosexuals. If racism is not permitted, why are gay people being discriminated? ridiculous…

3.    lorrainecampos  |  June 1st, 2009 at 6:35 pm

Ca,

Your opinion on this totally reflects my own. For me, people who don’t agree with gay or even lesbian marriage aren’t conservative, they are biased in opinion, prejudiced people. I don’t think anyone deserves to be harranged with insults just because of their different love choice. Allowing gay marriage won’t change anyone’s lives, since it doesn’t affect them, or isn’t out of the law, why not? I don’t see a reason people that like others of the same sex should be denied basic human rights because of some petty arguments presented by the conservative side of the issue. One of my current events article was on the same topic as well. On my essay, which isn’t posted here I say that people should live their lives and let others live theirs. Come on, no one has anything to do with people’s love choice. Who cares if someone chooses to be homosexual, marrying people of the same sex is none of your business unless you’re the one getting married. As for the rest, let people live their lives the way they want, let them be happy as they want to. No one should be controlled on how they think and act as long as it’s not against the law…

Nice article!

Beijos,
Lô

4.    talitafranco  |  June 2nd, 2009 at 6:38 pm

carol, i think that this is a very polemic topic, if this law was accepted, or voted upon, there would be much arguement over it. My personal opion is that i gay marriage shouldnt exist. I know im very outnumbered my my fellow colleges, but, you see im catholic and i follow my religion. In the catholic faith gay marriage is not allowed, it is actually a sin. I respect homosexuals because they are humans and deserve respect, but im not favorable with them being able to marriage. I respect your opinion, i just dont agree with it.

5.    Chris  |  June 3rd, 2009 at 3:35 pm

My opinion on homosexual marriage is exactly same as yours, Cah. Even though the concept of homosexuals is different from what we have been considering “normal”, it doesnt necessarily mean that being gay is wrong. Also, not allowing gay marriage is going against the human rights declarization because it obviously indicates that everyone deserves same rights no matter what sex, race….etc.
I think this(=looking at gays in a strange way..) comes from our prejudice. I hope this legalization of homosexual marriage will be the first step to change our misconception.

6.    andyramirez  |  June 3rd, 2009 at 4:01 pm

OHHH MUCHCHA I THINK THIS ARTICLE IS REALLY INTERESTING AND I AGREE WITH YOU, IT SHOULD BE LEGALIZED .EVERYONE HAS TO TAKE THE DECISSION OF WHAT THEY WANT.AND AS YOU JUST SAID THEY DONT AFFECT ANYONE.GAY MARRIGE SHOULDNT BE CRITICIZE BECAUSE IF THEY LOVE EACH OTHER NOTHING ELSE IS IMPORTANT.

7.    annacvicentim  |  June 4th, 2009 at 10:17 pm

Carol, after I read your article, I became scared, hahaha.
But seriously, I think its ridiculous how people descriminate gays. Each person has it choice, its opinion, they should do whatever they want! I also agree with what you said; they dont affect anyone, so they should be legalized!

Very interesting article!

Kisses,
Love You

Anna Vicentim

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About what Talita commented. First of all, no you do not respect homosexuals. If you did, you wouldn’t be neglecting them the same rights as others. Honestly, this is one of the reasons I do not follow one specific religion. Catholic church says that being homosexual is a sin, what about that talk about respecting the other individual and all? I believe in God, and in a greater power. But judging people like that is not what religion means to me. I respect catholics and their beliefs, all I’m saying is that for me, acting like that is just another way of closing your mind. It’s as if the people are puppets that the church keeps controlling. Sometimes, I wish people had more personality and went against what some priest or whatever said to them. I have so much to say about this topic but I won’t because I know that it will cause a lot of confusion…

Please comment about your opinion about this. Is it just me that feels like homosexuals should have the same rights as all of us? Or is it really a sin (like the church says) to be with the one you love??

Freeze

Like I mentioned on a previous post I had to learn how to do a freeze for today’s hip hop class. Taking in consideration that lately the weather in Brazil is making me freeze did not help when trying the hip hop freeze. My body is so stiff that hurts just to breathe. Tlday at school I asked some people to help me out. I was practicing on the wall, and I was already terrified. I couldn’t even put my hands on the ground that I felt like my arms wouldn’t support my body weight. I tried doing it the whole day long, and I actually did it! Of course, on the wall and not for so long but I did it! I was still nervous, because in class I wouldn’t have a wall and I had to stay up for one whole tempo. I got home and kept practicing. After so many times, I stopped concentrating before going and I ended up hitting my head on the wall when coming back. It was so painful, and so strong! I feel to the ground and stayed there. It was like my world had been affected. Even before hitting my head, I was with a small headache. But right there, I felt as if my heart was pumping inside my head. My ears started hurting because it felt like the pumping was so loud! I couldn’t move, every small movement was as if a building was collapsing on top of my skull. Carefully, I got up and sat down. I was really dizzy. After some minutes the pain diminished, or maybe I just got used to it. I sat down to play piano. While playing I started seeing these flashes. Just like when someone takes a picture and the flash goes out. At first, I thought it was outside. Then, as it randomly continued, I thought my aunt was taking pictures. It didn’t stop, I was really scared, it happened out of nowhere , it was as if my whole world just had this bright flash and then went back to normal. I went to ask my aunt if she was seeing this, maybe the lights were weird or something. Then she taught me something, she told me that she has that too. And that she went to the doctor and he explained to her. Sometimes the brain is having a lot nervous signals going on (this is not a biological explanation) and it overloads the senses part. Making you see flashes, or sometimes even feel a subtle shock on your skin. I asked if I was going crazy. That seems like a symptom someone would have before becoming completely insane. Maybe the next step would be hearing voices… She said no, and that it’s ”normal”. It’s not as if my brain has problems, it’s just that it happens. Since I’m really into Stephen King now it feels like aliens are trying to communicate with me. (I’m now reading Dreamcatcher – Stephen King… coincidence! =D haha). I know it’s weird, but it’s kinda creepy and exciting at the same time. Common’, something new for my good ol’ routine. Aliens communications! Ha! After my piano incident I didn’t see anything new, if I do I’ll post it up. I was thinking if maybe hitting my head had anything to do with it. I don’t know, and don’t want to know. What if there’s more effects? Like dying of internal bleeding in my sleep! Talking about sleep, I’m going to bed. And hope I won’t die of anything on my brain. Even though my head is still pulsing. If I do, this is my last post… Goodbye world.

PS: I didn’t quite get the freeze right in class. But it was okay because my partner got hurt so we didn’t do it more than once.