There’s this girl that always said she never drinks because not only does she think it’s wrong but that she doesn’t like the taste. I totally agree with her. She always said she didn’t care about what other people would think about her attitude because she has a strong personality. I also agree with her on that. This girl hated “Pagode”, always did. We used to talk how be both hated this type of Brazilian music. Last night, she was hanging out with some friends and this boy that is always flirting with her started to come around. He started talking and then asked her if she was doing anything Friday. She asked why, and said that no, even though she is doing something Friday. He said that he would like to invite her to go to a party he is going to be the DJ and said that there would be some “Pagode” groups there. She looked at him, not knowing exactly what to say. He said: “You like Pagode right?” “Yeah, It’s pretty cool” Then he continued: “There will also be an open bar with tequila and vodka so we can have some fun.” Again, she looked at him, puzzled, thinking about what would be the right thing to say. Would it be: No, I don’t drink, but thank you anyway. And he would just walk away and not look or talk to her again. That is because she knows that he is that type of boy, that doesn’t care about who you are, just what you do, and drinking would make her look interesting. Instead she said: “Oh, that will be fun. Yeah, I drink some…” How can someone that always believed and said that drinking is wrong and didn’t like when others were drinking say that? How can someone that always said she had personality change her beliefs because of a random guy that is asking her out? Honestly, I don’t know. The worst of it all, is that this girl was me. I don’t know why I said I would drink, because honestly I wouldn’t. Even if I tried, I hate the taste of alcohol. I know it might not seem like a big deal for you, but for me it is. It’s like I’m losing everything I believed in. I lost myself in the path of life, and maybe, just maybe, I got the wrong path and have to turn around and try to find the pieces of my old self. I hope that when I do, I can put them all together and go back in being the girl that had enough personality to not change my mind over temporary people in my life. About the guy, I’m not going out Friday. First because I don’t think it will be a good idea, cough flirting cough. And second, if he really want to ask me out then be it, but for who I really am. Not who I’m pretending to be just to make him adore me.
PS: Plus I will not have anything with him cause I totally love Eric. But you know, it feels good to know someone besides your boyfriend is interested in you.
