Like I mentioned on a previous post I had to learn how to do a freeze for today’s hip hop class. Taking in consideration that lately the weather in Brazil is making me freeze did not help when trying the hip hop freeze. My body is so stiff that hurts just to breathe. Tlday at school I asked some people to help me out. I was practicing on the wall, and I was already terrified. I couldn’t even put my hands on the ground that I felt like my arms wouldn’t support my body weight. I tried doing it the whole day long, and I actually did it! Of course, on the wall and not for so long but I did it! I was still nervous, because in class I wouldn’t have a wall and I had to stay up for one whole tempo. I got home and kept practicing. After so many times, I stopped concentrating before going and I ended up hitting my head on the wall when coming back. It was so painful, and so strong! I feel to the ground and stayed there. It was like my world had been affected. Even before hitting my head, I was with a small headache. But right there, I felt as if my heart was pumping inside my head. My ears started hurting because it felt like the pumping was so loud! I couldn’t move, every small movement was as if a building was collapsing on top of my skull. Carefully, I got up and sat down. I was really dizzy. After some minutes the pain diminished, or maybe I just got used to it. I sat down to play piano. While playing I started seeing these flashes. Just like when someone takes a picture and the flash goes out. At first, I thought it was outside. Then, as it randomly continued, I thought my aunt was taking pictures. It didn’t stop, I was really scared, it happened out of nowhere , it was as if my whole world just had this bright flash and then went back to normal. I went to ask my aunt if she was seeing this, maybe the lights were weird or something. Then she taught me something, she told me that she has that too. And that she went to the doctor and he explained to her. Sometimes the brain is having a lot nervous signals going on (this is not a biological explanation) and it overloads the senses part. Making you see flashes, or sometimes even feel a subtle shock on your skin. I asked if I was going crazy. That seems like a symptom someone would have before becoming completely insane. Maybe the next step would be hearing voices… She said no, and that it’s ”normal”. It’s not as if my brain has problems, it’s just that it happens. Since I’m really into Stephen King now it feels like aliens are trying to communicate with me. (I’m now reading Dreamcatcher – Stephen King… coincidence! =D haha). I know it’s weird, but it’s kinda creepy and exciting at the same time. Common’, something new for my good ol’ routine. Aliens communications! Ha! After my piano incident I didn’t see anything new, if I do I’ll post it up. I was thinking if maybe hitting my head had anything to do with it. I don’t know, and don’t want to know. What if there’s more effects? Like dying of internal bleeding in my sleep! Talking about sleep, I’m going to bed. And hope I won’t die of anything on my brain. Even though my head is still pulsing. If I do, this is my last post… Goodbye world.

PS: I didn’t quite get the freeze right in class. But it was okay because my partner got hurt so we didn’t do it more than once.