Last dance class, Monday, the teacher told the ”couples” that the girl had to do a freeze and the boy another freeze under. I was really nervous, I can barely to a cartwheel, how was I suppose to do a freeze. My partner told me to practice on the wall and that I could do it for next class (today). I did practice. (more details about it on the post: Freeze) I got to class today and the teacher made us do these exercises. It was so painful. I felt like I was trying to get into the army or something. Everyone was in a row, we had to do push-ups, run, jump, crawl. And he kept screaming: GO! GO! FASTER! IS THIS ALL YOU GOT???!!! Honestly, I don’t know how I did it. 80% of the class gave up and left the room, because the teacher kicked them out for not doing it. I think that the reason I did it was that while I was doing it I kept thinking: “Go, you can do it. You need a good grade, you need to pass this level. You need to show that you’re good. You can’t suck a this too. You love this, common’” And I kept pushing me towards death as each second went by. At the end, he put cones around the classroom (which is huge btw) and we had to run around with the music on. We started jogging, and he kept running next to us and screaming and telling each person how they had to go faster and all. We were gaining speed so fast. After 5 minutes of running so fast and a guy screaming at you I could barely breathe. The cold air seemed solid when entering my lungs and I had to do twice as much effort to swallow. After 8 minutes I couldn’t feel my legs. I knew they were in pain, but due to the cold I could barely feel them at all. After 10 minutes it was as if I gained so much momentum that my body was moving so fast and at the same time in so much pain! When it was over, we had to go around walking so we would slow down. I looked around and 5 people of the 30 students were still there.
And I was one of them! I was so happy! the teacher said we had passed his physical condition test. I couldn’t believe it, me, Carol, that doesn’t do ANY sports (only dance) passed the test! The test that 25 students gave up on, because of physical pain! Well, my happiness didn’t last long. I stopped walking and my legs started hurting so much! I was having cramps at both at the same time! I never believed someone could so much pain. Even when I broke my foot (two ligament ripped, one fracture and one vein destroyed) I didn’t feel as much pain. Probably because I felt so much pain with my foot that there’s a point that it just gets numb and you don’t feel that much! It’s like, you know it’s hurting, but you kind of got used to it. Well, these cramps weren’t enough to trick my brain so I would get used to it. I was so tired I couldn’t breathe, my body muscles were all useless for moment and my legs couldn’t support my body. I collapsed. Then, the teacher said we were doing all the choreographies ( it’s like 5 minutes of dance). And he put the music on. How was i supposed to dance like that?? But like always, dance/music motivated me and I went for it. I danced like it was the last time I would in my whole life. Like I was going to die right after the last move. When it was done, it was as if I was a different person. I was light, my head, my body, everything felt different. If I didn’t know myself, I would’ve sworn I was high, but I don’t use drugs so that’s not an option. I guess, I got high on exercise.

After the second half of class we were doing a new choreography and my partner got hit on the face by this other girl. It was accidental, and I could see that it’d hurt so much! He went to the bathroom and came back with ice. His cheek bone was bruised. Tomorrow he has an audition to dance at a big concert with Claudia Leite at Salvador and he was so sad because he might not get the place if his face is bruised, because the looks count a lot. I could see he was really sad, disappointed, and I felt bad for him. I went and asked if he was okay, redundant question, obviously he wasn’t. He said yeah… I got out of class in a depressive mood and now I’m kind of airy. This post is to send good vibrations and luck so my partner will get his place in the concert… GOOD LUCK!