I just watched this video that made my eyes fill up with tears. It’s funny how we people, live our lives. We have this one thing that we all know, we’re born, we live, we die. Everyone accept the fact, that one day, the ones they love will die and they will too. But the day when you loose that one person, it’s as if you never knew it was coming. It’s like someone takes your heart away and puts painful memories in it’s place.

I’m the type of person that always hold back what I’m feeling. As time goes by, this feeling grows inside of me to a point that it feels like my heart is about to burst. When my grandmother died, I stood strong. I was there for my parents and for the family. Everytime we met, I would hold a smile and say that everything was alright and that she is in a better place. But everytime I start remembering her, and the small things it’s as if it was the day she left. Everytime I listen to Slipped Away from Avril Lavigne, it’s like my world if falling apart, all over again. It’s the song I listened the day she passes away, and it still has the same meaning to me. I remember when we used to go to São Paulo and I wouldn’t say much, just like her, it was as if the silence was our communication and our hearts felt in peace that way. When we were alone, we would just sit there and stare at each other. Her eyes showed her soul, and I could see the brave woman that was in so much pain because no one understood her. In silence, we would sit and listen to each others breathing. Now, 4 years since the last time I heard her breathing I sit in silence. I close my eyes, and remember what it felt like to be next to her. My throat closes and my heart hurts, because I know that she can feel me too. I know that she understood me, with no words, because I understood her. I accept the fact that she is gone, but I can’t deny how it hurts to know that I will never be there, on a Saturday night, next to her. I can’t deny how it hurts, to remember the last time we hugged and said goodbye, and what hurts the most is that we didn’t know it was our last goodbye. Now, that I’m alone I can let my tears out and remember everything. I still love her so much, and all these years only made my love for her grow. I know that one day, we’re going to meet again. The silence will bond our hearts and mend our souls. It’s sad to say it, but I know that where she is now is much better than the life she was living here.